Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Live and Learn...

I love that sentiment Jenny. I think that's what this whole experiment in lifestyle changing is about. Maybe we should make that our motto. Live and learn. Let me tell you, my whole life has been the living and now I'm trying to look back on it and make some sense. I feel like the blogging aspect of our journey is really, really helpful. Blogging has helped me to come to terms with some of the reasons I have failed in the past. I might not be able to entirely avoid some of these events but I am trying so hard to handle them. Everyday I think, hmmm....what should I eat, what should I do, how will this affect the effort, what will I say to the girls if I fuck up? Tonight is a great example. At work I was starving (something I will address in a minute) and I kept thinking that even though I have a very tastey and good for me casserole at home that I should go to Noodle and Co. and get there Wisconsin Mac 'n Cheese. Then I thought, NO! When I got home I contemplated just heating up my dinner and sticking a movie in and saying screw it to the exercise...and then I thought NO! I need to stop justifying my lazziness. In my head I think, most people take 1-2 days off of working out per week so why shouldn't I?!?!? I'll tell you why, most of these people don't weight 307 pounds and are working out a lot harder than I am right now. Plus, I knew that I would be really sad to write that I got lazy after 2 days...so, I came home and did about 20 minutes of moderate cardio again. And now, I'm tired and really, really, really hungry. But I have to say, I am also very happy!

Jenny, please, please, please don't ever feel like you shouldn't blog when you're struggling. That is actually the most important time to do it I think. I know it sucks to admit it when we are not doing great (seeing as we're strong and independent women) but if nothing else I can offer some moral support! Hang in there lady, you can do it!

Ok, so I have learned something this week that I need to share. I have got to start bringing a midafternoon snack to work with me. I am usually famished when I get home and then I snack while I'm making dinner or I decide that I don't want to wait to make dinner and I grab something (usually full of really yummy but bad things). This is bad. Either way I'm not eating the way I should be. So, from now on I think I'm going to start packing something. I took a banana today and it did the job well so I'll stick with bananas for now, however, I did try those Fiber 1 bars (I got the chocolate ones) and they are AMAZING...a bit on the pricey side but yum!

Anyway, I think my hunger is getting to me so I should stop my rambling and fix that. Head up Jenny, keep that head up!

2 comments:

LeAnn said...

I didn't mean to only comment on my sister's blog, I was short on time. But anyway - your afternoon snack dilemma and solution is something I deal with almost daily. I am usually away from my apt. for 8-9 hours, making me starving by the end of my day. I usually pig out when I get home out of hunger and I don't want to do that. A friend of mine has been asking me to join him in working out and once my schedule slows down I think I will - it's a good motivator - hopefully. Sharing my stresses with weight loss on blog and stuff really does help. I'm a wee bit jealous as it seems you and Jenny are doing really well. Keep up the good work.

project.100.gone said...

No worries Leann, I know that you're a busy girl. Also, don't be jealous. I know that I am struggling like hell most of the time. I fall off the bandwagon a lot...it's just a lot easier to write about my successes. Keep your head up lady!